Been Thinking

I've been thinking....

Em said recently that sometimes she thinks of God all day, and doesn't do regular Bible reading, and sometimes she does Bible reading everyday, but forgets God the rest of the day.(I think a lot of us are or could be like that. I know I easily am)

Well, it got me thinking. I think so many Christians get into a pattern of reading the Bible everyday (which is by no means wrong), and they do it just because they have to, not because they WANT to. Recently, I was reading the Bible everyday, but I wasn't thinking about God very much the rest of the day, and my prayers were robotic, praying the same thing every time. I wasn't doing so people could see me and say, "What a good girl she is" because I always read the Bible in my room alone.

So I prayed to God to help me change. And He is helping me. I still try to read the Bible everyday, but it means more, and I think about what I read more.

I think that could be a danger of praying before you eat. It's a good habit, but it's easy to forget why you do it, and it's easy to forget it's not a law (if you don't do it, you're breaking God's law - not true). It's okay if you eat food before praying. I think churches can fall into that trap too. Especially Reformed Baptist churches. But I'm not really sure...

Thoughts?

Me and thoughts

I'm sitting here in front of the computer, there are tears in my eyes. Why? I don't know. I'm so confused and I don't even know where to start my thoughts....

I don't have any great tragedy or sadness in my life. I have only small trials, though they may seem big to me at the time. Why do I have so much when some have so little? Why do I suffer with so little, when so many suffer so much? I guess it's just God's providence and plan. Lord, your will be done, even if I do not understand.

Sometimes life makes so much sense! As if all the pieces of the puzzle come together and I have but one fleeting glance... I feel as if I made sense of it all, then I don't. Or I just don't know. Is there "the deeper meaning in life"? Is that all just wishy washy? I don't know. It's all so complicated....

And those moments I have those great revelations, I am never right at the point to right it down, and I am unable to share it with you all.

I'll just keep trying...





....more:

How Can I Keep from Singing?
Robert Lowry

What though my joys and comforts die?
The Lord my Saviour liveth;
What though the darkness gather round?
Songs in the night He giveth;
No storm can shake my inmost calm,
While to that refuge clinging;
Since Christ is Lord of heaven and earth,
How can I keep from singing?